What the devil says to me

Dude amber, what's your problem girl? Why are your recent posts so dark and ambiguously EMO. You're not usually like this are you? When I first met you, I thought you were cheerful with a sunny disposition. Now, reading this and getting to know you more, you seem to be more of the partly cloudy type most days.

I guess I'm a little disappointed. I remember you used to be pretty optimistic and fun to be around. Now, it seems like you have ISSUES. No, don't tell me what they are -- I only have time for the fun and happy Amber, or big and juicy issues like boys and friend drama. Your troubles wear me out. They're just your mundane insecurities that are not only tedious to explain, but tedious to listen to also. Everyone has these and YOU should just get over them.

Speaking of big and juicy issues, why aren't you more x y or z? If you look at girl A, she's got a lot going for her. People love her and she is just so naturally loving. Why aren't you more like that?

Or don't you ever doubt yourself because you are lacking a lot of things? I think you really should look at why you aren't successful or have certain things and change them because it must have something to do with who you are... which isn't really all that great.

And because of your not so great self, you are kind of just there taking up space. See, even that person you thought you could rely on and that person you thought you were tight with don't even want you around. You try to share with them what's on your mind, and they change the subject and don't even acknowledge or try to understand you. They make what you're going through seem insignificant and not worth listening to. Oh yeah, that's because they are.

You should just stay and forget about trying to do anything good because it's not like you are going to succeed anyway. Well, anyhoos. Thought that I'd let you know what was on my mind. I'll be back soon, don't worry. We have a LOT more to talk about.

Your only friend,
The devil.